Pregnancy, the holidays (More random thoughts from a short pregnant lady)

First, I'm halfway through this pregnancy AND we just found out we are having a baby girl! We are so excited, especially the girls in the family as this will even everything out, and somehow that matters. :) This also means that our pattern holds. Boy, girl, boy, girl, boy, GIRL! And that will be our finale. After having kids for the past 16 years I will officially, and without regrets, be done after #6. I know, I know, we said that after #4 and #5 but this time is for real, I can't do this forever. Plus my 7 year old pointed out "We can't really have more because our car is going to be filled up now." So there you have it folks, solid logic and a concrete reason 6 is enough and perfect for us. 

My pregnant brain is still keep my thoughts all a-jumble but somehow I'm managing to keep on keeping on. I'm homeschooling my 7 year old and my 12 year old. That and keeping the 2 year old occupied all day keeps me plenty busy and yet somehow people want food to eat, bills to be paid, and clean clothes etc too. No wonder the pregnancy seems to be flying by. And while one second I am feeling frustrated that it still feels like summer I panicked last night laying in bed because I had the "Aaaahh, how will I be ready for Christmas" panic attack. It seems once we move into September Halloween feels moments away which means the holidays begin. And that where the panic sets in. 

"What will I get everyone?! 

"How will I get it all done and be a million weeks pregnant??" 

"How will I pay for Christmas and a baby?!" 

And then I get all nostalgic and dreamy and can't wait for Thanksgiving and the Christmas season. I just love that time of year! Worries and stress can't ruin my love for the holidays. I wish we could have another family trip for Christmas as we did last year but somehow it seems impractical when I will be just 4ish weeks from my due date at that point. Yeah, better stay close to home. That's okay, I  excited for a Christmas at home too, and now we are back to worrying. 

"How much should I decorate when I'm going to be having a baby right after?"

And the ever present

"How will I pay for Christmas  AND the bills that come with having a baby?!"  

Deep breaths, happy thoughts. And oh yes, some sleep will probably help.